Rindu...

i miss everyone..

i miss my sayang..but i know i'll see him later..

i miss my abah... i pray i'll c him again in heaven..

i miss mak...n will never forget her...she's alwaz in my prayer

i miss uwan..hope to c her again..

i miss jasmin so much..adik,maksu tetap ingat kat adik..u r my niece forever,no matter what..

i miss kakcik...i'm sorry if i hurt u,u r still my sister even in thousands years..

i miss my brothers...buruk mana pon,kita tetap ber bin & bintikan org yg sama...

sy rindu semua org ini...tapi rindukan org yg dah takder tak sakit sangat,berbanding rindukan org yg depan mata,tapi tak dapat jumpa....

sy tetap berdoa semoga satu hari nnt rindu sy akan terubat...

sy rindu en.suami..

En.suami juz left this evening to Miri..for a week trip..yg paling tak best ialah,he'll be offshore..haishh..so torturing..m here,all alone at home..n i've started to miss him when i wanna close my eyes.He juz safely arrived there..so basically this entry will b a tribute for mia darling hubby..

We've got married last June..after about 1 1/2 years dating..hahhaa..we knew each other for quite a short period of time and decide to get married,since from the very beginning i've told him that m looking for a husband,n no such time for "geli2" as m running out of time..hahaha..daring kan saya..tp tu la..i've wasted 10 years of my precious time for dating someone else,n end up TOTAL disaster,so i juz dun want to waste another cycle of my life..he basically agreed with me at that time n i think we're on the same track..actually i knew him through my x-classmate back in STJ,which apparently is his coursemate..and at that time m so brokenhearted to death..hehehe..so,apalagi,sessi mengorat pon bermula...sy la tu yg ayat dia..honestly i can't remember when is our 1st date,but i still remember that we went to Berjaya Times Square and watched Eragon..,n then we started to go out officially..at that time,i still worked and stay in seremban,so we alternately will travel..either i went to KL or he came down to Seremban..And since we both agreed not to waste anymore time,so i've struggling to find a job in KL,since mak juz passed away shortly after that,n my nightmare had juz begin(sy takmau ingt lg scene yg ini)..alhamdulillah,Allah makbulkan doa sy,and i escaped from it..so,we get married..hahahaha..nmpk mcm simple je kan kesah cinta kitorg..mmg takder yg menarik pon,except that we are so much in luv with each other..There's thousands of reason why i accepted him to b my counter part..some of it will be like...

1. i luv his smile..sy kan suka mrh n mengamok,so whenever he smile back at me,m melting..
2. he never mad or angry with me..
3. he's so cool..come whatever problem,he'll maintain intact..
4. so dedicated in what he's doing..he'll get n achieved what he want..
5. sgt kuat dr segi mental..(i knew his background well,n if it was me,surely i can't survive)
6. kami sama2 takder mak,so we know how it feel..
7. he really makes me happy..sy sgt gembira dgn dia..
8. he accept me as what i am..never try to change me..

One more thing why i don't think twice to accept him is a very kinda thankful advice to Mr.Jalut..Once,he told me,when i feel really down..

"Kak yam..ko cuba je dulu..lepaskan n lupakan sume yg dulu..ko go with the flow..Insyaallah ko akan dpt yg terbaik..tp yg penting ko go on jer.."

Jalut,ko sure da lupa apa yg ko ckpkan,tp aku tetap ingt..n sbb tu aku go with the flow..n the current lead me to the right path..thanx pal..:)

To En.Ahmad Hosni..i luv u..n smp bila2 pon sy tetap syg awak..

shoppings...

Have u all ever encounter this type of problems? i called it as a problem since it really create chaos for me n my hubby’s pocket..hahahhaha..have u ever been in a situation where u really want to buy that thing,but you can’t have it at that particular time, and it end up u can’t sleep at night and u keep thinking about it?Have u ever face that?if it’s so,welcome to the club……me myself particularly facing this kinda problem everytime I want to have something..just to fulfill my desire to have it…I’ll do anything I could to OWN it, including persuading my hubb, just to justify why I need that thing badly..eventhough it was all crap and actually I dun really need it at all..even in 10years time oso I will never need it..but the fact is I want to have it, and I can’t sleep at night until I own it..hahahha…chronics is it?Bak kata shikin harith,dapat beli roti 50sen pon da cukup..janji ader transaction..muahahahahha...

Quick Updates..

Hai..

i know m a lazy bump..updating the blog once in a blue moon..but i'll try my best to update it frequently now on..erk..i think i did use this phrases in the previous entry..hehehe..

so, quick updates.. 1) my abah passed away in august,a week before ramadhan..so sad..now m officially orphanage..no more parenz to turn to when u really need them..sedeh tau..2) still working at the same bored and pressurized work place..hahahh..juz that m getting stress day by day..rambut da mula gugur..feel nausea tak tentu pasal,mulut selalu pecah2...hmm..3)now staying alone at home..hubby is gone for badminton...eh jap dia kol..alamak dia ajak g mkn sate..erk..i sambung esok je la entry ni..hahahaha...